Exams are overrrrr!
This semester has been the most hectic one so far, uni 4 days a week as well as nights at work about the same amount of nights. It felt like I didn't stop for the whole semester. A couple of hours of sleep have been the biggest luxury ever! I have never appreciated it so much!
Now it is all over, not sure about the future and honours but I am taking it as it comes.
My girls Jade and Hannah have both made everything so much easier and given me an enormous amount of support. I can't thank them enough.
Now that uni is done we are enjoying the summer and all it has to give.
Loving life and longing to go back to Sweden and see my family!!!
I am the luckiest girl on earth! <3<3<3
CONGRATULATIONS!!!
Oh how you have grown Daniil, from a tiny little bub into a handsome and intelligent young man that I am extremely proud of! It is a bit of a strange feeling that someone who I used to hold in my hands, soothing from angry crying, whom I took out to play, who used to hurt himself frequently and scare the shizz out of me is now taller than me and is growing up!
I am so proud of you my dearest brother! I want to congratulate with finishing school and starting your path in high school, towards uni! I want to wish you the best of luck and strength!
Every woman deserves a man like you in her life, mom and I are the luckiest girls ever! Every man should strive towards being like you!
Love you with all of my heart!!!
See you very very soon!
Your annoying sister!!!
Semester 1, 2011
This semester at uni has been a handful! New friends made it easier and more enjoyable! I wanna say thank you to Cowie, Burnsie, Lentil, Kitty, Chaney for all the smoking brakes and inappropriate behaviour around uni! Best and loudest group everrrr!!! Each and everyone of you is "special", in a great way of course!
My beloved Jenna bear has left me, but the fact that she is so happy means the world to me and I would not want it any other way! Bless your heart my love!
Bestest Jade and have had a falling out this semester, which led to a messy break up and then to a wonderful make up! Now we are stronger than ever and more supportive of each other. We have our differences but always find the way back into each others arms. I am also moving houses next semester with my beautiful Indiana! So excited!!
I had a great night with awesome people for my 23rd!
And said goodbye to Lauren who I miss!!!
I have met probably one of the coolest and most mature 17 year olds out there!
Been hanging out with the biggest weirdo named Ross!!!
Been motivated by amazing Kitty-Kat!
Fell in love with a cow!
I loved this semester!!!
Finally, I am going to Sweden in less than 2 weeks, (unless the volcano ash effs it all up for me). I am looking forward to it! Skype is great to see your beloved family but no where near the real life hugs and contact!
That is a short update, now I need to get back to studying!!!
xxx
23!
It's MY day today and I am loving it! I am loving being older, I am loving the love and attention, I am enjoying myself! Actually everyday is my day and I will demand attention if non is given hahaha!
Going to celebrate on Saturday together with miss Jenna, who's bday is tomorrow, you better not be sick Jen!!!
Am really excited for the party I must say!
Alright this is me procrastinating, I better go and get my studying on!!!
xxx
Age is just a number...
Conversation between mom and I last night.
Mom: How old am I turning, is it 45 or 44?
Me: 44, I am pretty sure. See you had me when you were 21, so that's what the difference always should be, and if you were turning 45 it would have been 23 years.
(Meanwhile in my head I am trying to figure out why the difference turns out to be more than that at the moment. Coming to conclusion that it evens out during the year because our birthdays are in different months (Seriously?? No logic in that!) I hear my mom saying:
Mom: That's right, you are turning 23.
Me: WHATTT??? 23?? I thought I was turning 22.
My question is, if I forget my age by 23, what will I be able to retain by 40? Stress is powerful.
New beginnings and starting fresh
That is what the New Year is all about, it is supposed to be better than the year before, it is supposed to be a new page in peoples lives. This year has definatily brought new beginnings to many of my friends. Many of my friends have turned the page of the book called "Life" to start a new chapter. It sounds like a great thing but it has been dramatic and tragic.
On the 1st of January I thought that I was the only one who felt like the shit has hit the fan but it wasn't the case. Not only to mention the people who are affected by the horrible floodings in Queensland which my thoughts and prayers go to. There is someone even closer to my heart that is having a tough time to say the least. No names mentioned, but if you read this you will know that it is you I am talking about.
I am really sad to know what happened, I worry and wish you didn't have to deal with things like that. All I can say is that life can only get better from now on and that you will become stronger from this.
You are intelligent, insane, funny, beautiful inside and out! You have accomplished alot and dealt with alot. You deserve the best in life and anyone who gets into your inner circle should fight to stay in it. People who hurt you in any way don't deserve you and it is their loss! I am proud of you and I cherish you! You are an amazing friend, woman, mother, person!
Hopefully I will get to see you before I leave!
Love you!
-10 kg in 4 months
I have had a desire to write a post in here for a while but had nothing to write about. Therefore I have decided to share my weight loss journey with you guys. Between August and December 2010 I managed to loose 10 kg's which feels like a milestone for me. I know that there are many people out there that are struggling with loosing those extra kg's and constantly think about their weight. I wanna tell my story, what mind set I was in and what I did to accomplish it. Now I am still around 10 kg's away from my goal but halfway is better than square one.
I have for years, as long as I can remember been trying to loose weight, trying to let the healthy me out. I have been going up and down, quitting, starting over, trying new things. I have tried alot of ways of doing this but have always had the issue of keeping it up and turning it into a lifestyle.
Last time I was in Sweden, December -09 til August -10, I tried to eat less, go for walks, exercise bike, then gym, then 2 hours of gym each day and no more than 500 calories of food intake. It did work but with no great results and I ended up not keeping it up. All the things that I restrain myself from I end up doing, it doesn't matter what ban I am on I end up breaking the rules that I set up for myself.
This brings us to August, I returned to Australia and went back to uni. The first month I was eating 3 times a day and walking quite a bit around and to uni. Maybe around an hour of walking all together which isn't much at all. Luckily for me I moved houses and lived with Steve who's place was located close to the beach, I had an opportunity to walk on the beach and up a massive hill that led to his house. This was near the end of August and this is also when I started noticing body changes.
Then I found a place of my own to move into, in Mermaid Waters, which also is close to the beach. One morning Jenna, my roommate, suggested a morning beach walk, I gladly accepted. I have been dying to find someone who would exercise with me. These walks turned into a routine, every morning we woke up 5am and went for an hour and a half walk, along the beach to Burleigh Heads. Now the way we were able to keep this up was the fact that we were in it together and also the mind set we were in. Jenna and I saw these walks as the only chance to be calm, enjoy the nature, take a while to relax and forget about all of the stress. Therefore the walks were not fast at all, powerwalking was banned. We listened to our bodies. The serenity made the walks attractive. Seeing the sun go up, the waves breaking. We got inspired by the people along the beach, out walking, biking, rowing, swimming and doing all sorts of activities at those early hours.
Jenna and I joined the gym as well, where we went couple of times a week, sometimes more, sometimes less, did weights most of the time. We joined boxing classes, Zumba. Pretty much kept it diverse, challenging and fun. I was only member there for a month.
In November I started working as a bartender and I guess apart from our walks, this was my exercise as well, on my feet all nights during the weekends. My last week in Aus I worked 7 days in a row, long nights and slept pretty much through whole days and I was really sick. My eating wasn't the best, mostly toasties or tuna bakes. So this is pretty much all the exercise those 4 months.
When it comes to food, I didn't eat much meat, no read meat, not because I hate it, but it just happened and most of my food consisted of veggies, fish and chicken. I always made sure that I ate breakfast, lunch and dinner. Great way to keep yourself away from overeating. I made my own lunch to uni. Ofcourse I didn't keep up this daily and had many days of one meal.
Another important thing for me was to eat whatever my body was craving, I did not restrain myself from anything and if I felt like eating a shitload of chocolate then so I did. Same with junk food. Surprisingly I still kept on loosing weight. It is important to realise that your weight loss is going to take a long time or the time that your body needs, it is not about people noticing the differences, you are not going to reach your goal within days. Let it take time. Think long term rather than short term and make the healthy habits or exercise into your lifestyle. My motto is that exercise is all, that's what works for my body.
I also think that many people loose weight for all the wrong reasons. You have to do it because of you and not someone else, it's not about what people think of you but what you think of yourself. Why do you want to loose weight? That is the question to ask and the moment you do it for the right reasons, the moment you realise that it will take time and the moment you will stop stressing about the kg's on the scale you will change your life.
The hardest bit of loosing weight is working with your mind. The right mind set will take you far! Good luck!
Today looked like it was going to be a good day.
Despite the troubles that have followed me past few weeks. I have been living in my social psychology text book trying to zone out and learn for the upcoming exam. It has worked perfectly, I feel like I am learning and that things stick into my head. It really helps to have Jenna and Jamie to discuss it with. Finally I have room mates, I prefer the term friends, that actually are interested in more important things in life. It is great that they eagerly listen when I talk about different theories from different schools of psychology and try to apply them to real life. This makes me learn even better. I appreciate it alot.
Even though I have been studying like crazy it still feels inadequate, I keep on stressing myself out and the external stressors contribute to even more anxiety. I have been really tense and uptight the past weeks and feel like all this stress and negative energy need to burst out. Writing about it might help. I don't know where I am going with this post exactly but there is something that I wanted to write about. I can't say what it is or whom it happened to because I feel that it's not something I want to make public, neither does the person it regards.
Life can be very unfair and upsetting at times and all the bad stuff comes at ones, in the most inconvinient moments. Has always been like this for me. What I know is that I have to be strong, keep on being focused and concentrate on the exams. Being upset and destructive doesn't help anyone concerned. I have been strong. This year I have been more focused and I can say that I am proud of myself. Last year I wanted to go home badly because I needed to re-evaluate and re-charge my batteries, get strength to go back to my normal ambitious and goal oriented self. This semester I just wanna go home to see my family, to be happy about my success at uni and just appreciate every moment of freedom. Also I really, really need some serious sleeping, exercising and preparing for the next semester. Next semester is going to be hardcore. Five psych courses at ones. I am a bit anxious about that but nothing I can do about it and nothing that I wouldn't be able to accomplish.
I can't wait to go back to my happy, vibrant self. I can't wait to hear more about the news that I got today and am hoping that the end result of that will be good. I don't really know what will happen if it's not, but it will be devastating. If you are reading this, which I doubt, but you might, I just wanna say that you and I just have to keep strong and think positively and everything will be alright. Because it will, right? Promise me that!!! Love you!
Well a blurr of words later I really need to get back to my studies. Wish me luck. First exam is on Thursday. Second on Saturday morning, right after work. I will need to pretty much sleep all day on Friday, don't know how I will do that since I have so much studying to do. Me last year would have read one page out of the book and resorted to bindge drinking and meaningless socialising. Not this year, not now. Sorry for such a depressing post.
This is also for everyone that I haven't spoken to for ages, or seem weird and distant, snappy, bitchy or just different to. Be patient with me.
x
Even though I have been studying like crazy it still feels inadequate, I keep on stressing myself out and the external stressors contribute to even more anxiety. I have been really tense and uptight the past weeks and feel like all this stress and negative energy need to burst out. Writing about it might help. I don't know where I am going with this post exactly but there is something that I wanted to write about. I can't say what it is or whom it happened to because I feel that it's not something I want to make public, neither does the person it regards.
Life can be very unfair and upsetting at times and all the bad stuff comes at ones, in the most inconvinient moments. Has always been like this for me. What I know is that I have to be strong, keep on being focused and concentrate on the exams. Being upset and destructive doesn't help anyone concerned. I have been strong. This year I have been more focused and I can say that I am proud of myself. Last year I wanted to go home badly because I needed to re-evaluate and re-charge my batteries, get strength to go back to my normal ambitious and goal oriented self. This semester I just wanna go home to see my family, to be happy about my success at uni and just appreciate every moment of freedom. Also I really, really need some serious sleeping, exercising and preparing for the next semester. Next semester is going to be hardcore. Five psych courses at ones. I am a bit anxious about that but nothing I can do about it and nothing that I wouldn't be able to accomplish.
I can't wait to go back to my happy, vibrant self. I can't wait to hear more about the news that I got today and am hoping that the end result of that will be good. I don't really know what will happen if it's not, but it will be devastating. If you are reading this, which I doubt, but you might, I just wanna say that you and I just have to keep strong and think positively and everything will be alright. Because it will, right? Promise me that!!! Love you!
Well a blurr of words later I really need to get back to my studies. Wish me luck. First exam is on Thursday. Second on Saturday morning, right after work. I will need to pretty much sleep all day on Friday, don't know how I will do that since I have so much studying to do. Me last year would have read one page out of the book and resorted to bindge drinking and meaningless socialising. Not this year, not now. Sorry for such a depressing post.
This is also for everyone that I haven't spoken to for ages, or seem weird and distant, snappy, bitchy or just different to. Be patient with me.
x
Make me feel like I am the only girl in the world.
When did I write last? I can't remember.
Alright a quick update:
I have been very busy. Am about to have my finals in a weeks time.
I have got a job as a bartender at Melbas. LOVE ITTTTTT!!! I think it has all that I want in a job, loud music, dancing, flirting, socialising etc etc. Might think about it and maybe figure out a career based on that. Can't really think of a job atm. Bartender is def not something I wanna work with my entire life.
Today has been a great day, spent with myself, BJ and Mishka by the pool. Lovely.
The weather has been amazing here, but I must say that I am in this weird mood where I just don't feel like I belon here atm. I do, when it comes to social life and all but I really need to get home soon!!! So jealous of my friends that have gone home. Lucky beans.
hmmmm...dunno. Might write more later on tonight.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I am in love!
Hej alla!
Orka skriva pa engelska, det ar val anda mest folk hemma i Sverige som laser!
Nu har jag inte skrivit pa ett braaa tag, speciellt jamfort med mina dagliga uppdateringar nar jag var hemma.
Vad har hant sedan sist? Mycket pluggande, faktiskt, det gar bra for mig i uni. Vart forhallande ar bra igen efter 8 manaders paus. Vi behovde det. Nu umgas vi varje dag mandag till fredag (forutom pa onsdagar varannan vecka da vi har en dag var for sig) Halsar aven pa Uni under helgerna. Har dock bidragit Uni ett par ganger, da jag gick ut och festade och sa nar jag gick till stranden!
Uni har inga problem med det, sa lange jag ar hans under vardagarna.
Australien har borjat bli varmare, var sa oerhort kallt under ausgusti manaden.
Nu ar antligen varen har, som skulle faktiskt kunna klassas som sommar. Som sagt sa har jag varit pa stranden ett par ganger men inte alls lika mycket som jag vill. Nasta vecka borjar mitt lov (en vecka) far se om jag hinner att bli brun som en pepparkaka under den veckan. Hoppas!
Ska val upp till Noosa en svang da ocksa och halsa pa min van Sofia, henne har jag inte sett pa aaar! Hon har en son nu ocksa.
Jag har flyttat in med tva underbara tjejer i Mermaid Waters, underbart omrade, valdigt trevliga manniskor och noll turister och studenter. Tar mig en timme att komma till uni men jag alskar det!
Ska lagga upp bilder inom en snar framtid!
Puss och kram syns pa stan!
Jag hatar sma hundar, hatar, hatar, hatar, denna ar gransfall for att han heter Disco, tillhor Jenna och ar helt SCHIZ!
I prefer stats tm this.
Am sitting and listening to the most boring lecturer on earth. She def makes me love cognitive psych more than already do. Horrid. One and a half hour to go.Australia here I come!
Converse and sunnies.
Will miss you!
I know that we didn't spend enough time together but I feel that we really found our way back to the friendship that we once had and took to a new better level! You are a friend that truly cares and you would never leave me behind. You always care and take good care of me! The times that we had this year will stay in my memory and will be memories of joy!
Next time we see each other will be in the new year, new stories to share and new memories to create. Closer to finishing our degrees, our goals in life!
We have shared a lot, we laughed, we cried, we argued. Sometimes you think I am too rough, mean. That's just me. :P
I really hope that everything works out the way you want it to the rest of the year! Wish you luck in your studies.
Also I hope that we keep in touch better than last time.
Te amo Rozerin!
I hate packing
I have collected way too much stuff over the past six months. Thanks mom for telling me to pack today because it is killing me.
It doesn't look like much but just the nailpolish weights over 1 kg. And there is more.
Mom just called. I am going to meet her in town and guess what we are going to do? SHOP. More clothes. More headache. I can't resist!!!!
ok...
better now. gaining strength. :)
